Today I feel lost inside. I’m a messed up kid in this messed up world. I feel hopeless, worthless, confused, sad, tired, and all I can do is wonder, Who do I want to do with my life? I wish I knew. I want to cry. Though it never helps. Never stops the feeling nor answer the question. But at least when I breath deeply after a jag, for a single sliver of a moment everything eases.
Sometimes I don’t want to feel better… this feeling is all I know. The beginning was never easy…
